unsure

Feeling sort of sad today.  Like what’s the point.  Maybe it’s because it’s that time of month.  Maybe it’s because my youngest is leaving home in a little over a month.  Maybe it’s because I’m at that age where women ask themselves that. 

I don’t know. 

I feel like I don’t know anything. 

I used to be so sure. 

Always a half-full kind of person.  Looking to the bright side of whatever life threw at me.

Don’t feel that lately.  Scares me.  Don’t recognize myself anymore.  Feel half-empty.  Don’t like it.  Don’t know how to get back to myself again.

Hopefully tomorrow will feel different. 

Posted by Meg Tilly on Saturday, September 12, 2009 in Chewing the Fat